Filthy Rich

Peoples around me..
who stick with me long enough..
would have known my ideal type of man..
1st: he must be rich

one fine day..
a friend of mine talked to me about it..
she said that
It is better for us girls to have our own money by ourselves..
she told me to stop dreaming marrying a filthy rich man..
n start dreaming about making my own money..
deep in my heart..
I know.. she's true.. but I can't just forget about it.. hehe.. silly nieda..

Sometimes..
when I am seriously emotionally unstable..
I would just sat...
n looked back at my life..
n from that..
I know why I dreamt of having a filthy rich husband..

I'm just an effing emotionally unstable 23 years old girl

XOXO

Little Miss Nothing

Its kinda heartbreaking..

when u realized that..

peoples only know n remember u for what u have..

n not what u are..

XOXO

I've pricked my heart

Luna Sea is undoubtedly one of the greatest JRock band ever.. period!

my favorite song... Rosier..

Sugizo is just amazing!

This performance is EPIC!

 Luna Sea - Rosier

XOXO

Pledge

As usual...

switched on my laptop..

n fools around..

but today..

 OMG! 

no!

no!

no!

no!

I forgot to check out The Gazette's new single..

n it has been out since 26th Nov..

Which means..

I checked out their new song 2 weeks late..

gomen-ne Ruki-sama..

btw.. I think their new single Pledge is a 

lil bit soft for 'em..

but.. 

I simply lurvesss it..

uruha's n aoi's guitar solo is awesome!

the GazettE - PLEDGE (PV)
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The GazettE - Pledge

XOXO

Do you know that human brain weighs 8 pounds?

 I'm an effing immature childish 23 years old

XOXO

Sisterhood of the travelling pants

 I dunno why..

I think I am really similar to Carmen Lowell in dis movie..

owhh.. 

lurve d movie..

how I wish I could have a beautiful friendship like dat..

XOXO

Je suis tres bien

 as I'm avoiding from doing my revision..

I try to recalled back wut I have learned in my french class when I was in form 1 & form 2..

Regretfully.. there's not much dat I can remember..

apart from:

le poulet - chicken

le sucre - sugar

gateau au chocolat - chocolate cake

je ne sais pas - I dont know

Bonjour - hello

and i can only remember d alphabet until G..

uh huh.. I can remember a complete sentence now..

bonjour l'ami je suis ravi de tous recontrer- hello friend, i am delighted to meet u today

(sorry if I messed up d spelling)

(can u believe dat I actually wrote a poem.. completely in french back then when I was in form 2??)

I'm hoping dat..

someday..

I will be able to speak out and really mean dat..

"Je suis tres bien"

XOXO

Choices

Choice - consists of the mental process of judging the merits of multiple options and selecting one of them. While a choice can be made between imagined options ("what would I do if ...?"), often a choice is made between real options, and followed by the corresponding action. Most people regard having choices as a good thing, though a severely limited or artificially restricted choice can lead to discomfort with choosing and possibly, an unsatisfactory outcome. In contrast, unlimited choice may lead to confusion, regret of the alternatives not taken, and indifference in an unstructured existence; and the illusion that choosing an object or a course leads necessarily to control of that object or course can cause psychological problems -Wikipedia

In every living person in this world..
There will be a need to choose between choices..
When we were newly born.. we have to choose between crying or sleeping..
When we were a lil' bigger.. we have to choose between a lollipop or vegetables..
When we were in school.. we have to choose between doing homework or play..
When we were in high school.. we have to choose between college or work..
and I will say that there's a whole lot more choices dat we have done in our life..
be it good choices.. or bad choices..
Consequently.. we have to live with our choices.. happily.. or regretfully..
Some people say that by making mistakes in our life.. like making a bad decision.. will help us grow to be a more mature and experienced individual..
Some people could not live with the mistakes dat they've made.. and lives in depression.. or worse.. they commit suicide..
As a muslim.. I do believe that our life.. is not ours to take.. and faith is the greatest weapon a person can have..
But i cannot deny dat I myself have ever thought of suicide...
well.. we all have our moment..
u know..
teenage.. rebellious.. enraging hormone..
For some people.. like me.. we are really bad at making choices.. and always ended up following other's choices..
I do hope dat someday.. I am brave enough to boldly choose and live with d consequence no matter how will it turn out..
Sometimes.. I think my younger siblings is braver than me in making their own choices..
I am indeed envious of the peoples who are bold enough to make a difficult decision.. as I myself.. who have been living in this world for 23 years and 12 days are unable to do so..

XOXO

Running & Running

urghh..

bad cough..

lil' asthmatic episodes..

running nose..

raised temperature...

owhh..

wut to do..

d weather is changing again..

XOXO

congested

haishhh...

had a very bad congested nose today..

to d point where I gasp for breath if I close my mouth..

hahaha..

I can't even brush my teeth properly..

coz I felt so breathless when I close my mouth

XOXO

Show Me the Money!!!

My heart swoons watching Tom Cruise as Jerry Maguire..

ohh..

How I wish in 5-10 years from now..

my Jerry Maguire will come home n tell me..

"You complete me"

dat would definitely swept me off my feet.. ;p

(hahaha... pardon me for being hopelessly romantic.. well.. wut can I do.. I adore Tom Cruise.. )

XOXO

Rainbows

Ok.. let us reminisce..

some old school clips from laruku ;)

wutever it is..

40/41..

hyde-sama is still effing hot as ever..

Ready Steady Go - l'Arc~en~Ciel

Stay Away - l'Arc~en~Ciel

Driver's High - l'Arc~en~Ciel

In one words dat I can describe laruku..

KAKKOI!!!!

XOXO

Change

For better or for worse..

Peoples do change

XOXO

Why? Why? Why?

as the years are counting..

we are close..

physically..

but it felt like.. 

we are getting..

further n further apart...

XOXO

Friday Night

오늘 밤 나만이 아파요

XOXO

Shooting Star

How I wish I can be true to myself.. for once and for all..

 
XOXO

IMS' Sports day

Instead of this...

we got this..

XOXO

HalloweeN

I just lurves dis new vid by 2NE1 so so so so so so so much..

It hurts - by 2NE1

XOXO

Slumber Party... ;p

Frankly speaking...
I know.. it is a bit immature for us girls having a slumber party at our age..
but d heck... its just for fun... :)
BBQ...
ate a lot..
laughed a lot..
danced sillyly.. (is dat even a word)
play hard..
screamed like hell..
gossipping..
chatting..
slept in any spot dat we can find..
slept at about 3-4 am..
woke up after just 3-4 hours sleep..
walked back home in a hangover-like manner... (no.. we didn't have alcohol.. we only have sirap bandung and coke.. hehehe)
all in all..
It was FUN..!!
thanx for making it happens gurls..! (^-^)v
~ieda~tqah~farra~dee~aida~jama~dayein~dila~Sem~efi~wawa~tqah hamdan~syazwan~annis~buddy~sya~ayin~

ooo.. oh! I forgot.. I played guitar hero for d 1st time yesterday!! (hahaha.. i know.. dats kinda lame) thanx Shakkir!
and i laughed at myself like crazy..
now I am definitely sure.. I sucked at game.. but I just simply lurves it.. (hahahahaha,,,, hbs laaa.. hari2 serang umah Uze pasnih)

XOXO

Heartbroken?!

Sometimes..

When I think back..

I think my heart has been broken without me.. the owner.. realizing it..

but well..

I'm d kind dat can't stop to see d best in peoples..

even tho they've done sumthing wrong..

XOXO

What If We Can Relive the Best Moment Again?!

Ok.. this is a 2008 ad by Orange TV..

frankly speaking..

i dunno wth is orange TV..

a TV package I think..

but dis ad is sooo sweet n creatives!

~njoy!

XOXO

MirroR

Mirror mirror on the wall..

who's d most obnoxious of 'em all?

Mirror mirror on the wall..

is it my own fault that I ended up like wut I am today?

Mirror mirror on the wall..

am I destined to just be like I am now?

Mirror mirror on the wall..

am I really existed just to be tossed aside when I'm no longer useful?

Mirror mirror on the wall..

am I really destined to be just another loser?

Mirror mirror on the wall..

Have I chose the wrong path?

XOXO

Paperplane Pursuit

at my 1st time of hearing dis songs.. 

I thought dis guys are foreigners..

so I looked 'em up in Rick Dees, Billboard.. etc..

but I found nothing..

n then.. i looked 'em up in Fly fm..

n found out they are local band..

n soo.. 

here is it..

Goodbye by Paperplane Pursuit

~~njoy!! (^-^)v

XOXO

Monkey Business

Urghh..
My peaceful night has been invaded by a bunch of 'samseng' monkeys..
Damn monkeys..
they reside on my room's balcony..
they are doing sum serious shitty business there.. (seriously.. they were shitting there...A LOT)
Thanx to them..
I am now seriously sensitive to any clattering sounds..
Hmmmmm...
I dunno wuts up with me n animals...
I seriously dont like animals..
but dont get me wrong..
I don't enjoy looking at those peoples who abused animals for their own fun or advantages..
ok.. back to my story..
back when I was in my secondary school.. form 4.. in b4.. RPS..
on one 'lucky' night.. a cat gave birth in a locker just beside my bed.. which I put my school's shirt in..
n 'lucky' me.. I got to heard d howling pain of d kitten's mom all night.. and I only got to sleep for like an hour.. n 'lucky' me.. d cat's blood was smeared all over my school's shirt..
n d worse thing is.. she even tried to move her kittens onto my bed...
URGHHHHHH
n now.. a bunch of monkeys are residing on my room's balcony..
why oh why...
if only d animals are a bunch of handsome hunky guys..
I wouldn't mind if they want to bother me...
ok.. I sound like a desperate animal-hater


XOXO

Unsettled Darkness

Sometimes..
I just wonder..
What impression did I left on all d people I've met through out my life..
n these things kinda popped in my head...
over and over again..

primary school -> "ohh... she's Mr Burn's 1st daughter"
secondary school -> "ohh.. she's d big nerdy girl"
college prep -> "ohh.. she's d PDA girl"
university -> "ohh.. she's d girl who's driving d white MYVi"

am I really dat good for nothing girl who was only known for her things and appearance..
thinking about dat..
I think I really need to work my ass off to make my family proud of me..
maybe I could make a real big discoveries or new inventions in my life later on..

ohh.. I think I'm an arrogant snob.. thats why I ended up like who I am today.. padan muke

XOXO

le fou

i just watched the rerun of Beauty & the Beast in 3D at d cinema with buddy last thursday..
n soo..
dats y d name of dat stupid ass-licking assistant of Gaston ended up as the title of my post for today..
it has been almost a week since I've been back in dis land of chais and sarees..
although I've been doing nothing for 2 weeks in my home back in Ipoh..
n basically.. does not go out unless i have to picked up Iyman from school
n yes.. I kinda did horribly for my 2nd IA..
I've ate a lot of food n gained weight.. (how d hell did my tailor said I looked like I've lost sum weight.. well a lotta ppl did.. but when I went on d weighing machine it says otherwise... mysterious weight imbalance?!)
n yes.. I kinda have a new resolution to study a lil bit harder since d BIG FINAL EXAM is due in less then 3 months..
hurmm.. I didn't managed to meet up with my friends when I was in Malaysia.. sorry guys.. (apparently.. most of them can't take off from work... n it seems like I'm d only one who still fools around in a very unadult-like behavior) n i felt terrible for dat..
hell yeah.. my life is routined as ever..
n I dont think I'd left a deep impression on anyone if I'm gone

XOXO

Segamat, Johor

Look at what I got today!!
a kad raya from Segamat, Johor..
Thanx a lot achik, makchik, aishah, angah, huda n amat!!
n not forgetting Pos Malaysia ;p
Selamat Hari Raya!!
Maktok~~ sorry x dpt balik raye kali nih.. :)

XOXO

Dear Mr Days.. please slow down for me!

hahaha.. d earlier text is wtitten by Iyman.. haish dh standard 5.. tlsn camtuh lagi

oops.. I dit it again!
hahaha.. not another britney songs..
but hey.. I grew up listening to all those things..
so I am allowed to use her phrase once in a while..
as usual..
I was determined to stay up last nite until sahur..
n obviously..
I did not succeed in doing so..
hahahaha... was planning to take a quick nap... ended up having a 2 hours nap n woke up just before sahur..
haishh... its tuesday already.. n my preparation for exam is just like.. only 10%
hurmm... scared to death now..
If u were to asked me on how I felt bout facing d exams..
yet.. I still am in front of my laptop..

Katzung's pharmacology text ended up being a model for me

my Esprit watch dat needs herself a new leather strap

hahahaha... no.. I'm not a leftie..

Yup.. I'm one of d so called gleek

ignore d plump fingers.. notice d rings :)

 urghhh.. I am soo hating d new blogger editor..

btw.. a few pics dat I snap out of boredom..

XOXO

Surprise Surprise!!

ohh.. last friday.. I got myself a pleasant surprise from my mom in Malaysia..

Kuih Raya from Malaysia!!!
even though i didn't have d chance to eat murtabak, tepung pelita, roti john, etc.. from Bazaar Ramadhan dis year.. I guess.. these kuih raya really make my days!! (^^)v

ok.. now... have to force my lazy ass to sit in front of d desk n STUDY!!
wish me d best of luck! =)

XOXO

Just the thought of it.. makes me..

I never thought dat hearing raya songs could somehow..
makes me feel like nostalgic n longing at d same time..
but today.. during my sahur..
ida turned on a raya songs..
and it occurs to me..
"ehh... its only 5-6 days b4 raya... Ramadhan's gonna be over.. ohh.. i'm not gonna spend my raya with my family for d 1st time.."

I'm sure.. all of us have different anticipation for Raya..
Some of us might be eagerly waiting for raya to wear their best raya outfit..
Some of us can't wait to enjoy delicious raya delicacies..
Some of us can't wait to go back to kampung and meet up with relatives on raya..
Some of us are waiting to get duit raya..
Some of us are waiting to watch all those special Raya programs on TV..
Some of us can't wait to go to all those open houses..
all in all.. we clebrate raya in our own way..

for me.. this year's raya is gonna be my 1st time for not eating laksa johor on raya's eve..
my 1st time of not getting any duit raya.. (hahaha.. well.. i am still hoping i'll get some)
n off course..
my 1st time of not celebrating raya in Malaysia..
well..
I guess dats d price dat we have to pay to be an adult aight?!
fortunately.. i'm gonna be back one week after raya..
n I am planning on having my share of raya food d moment i stepped my foot in Malaysia.. ;p

ok...
as for d coming raya..
Sorry for all d mistakes I've done to any of u..
Sorry if I've ever hurt any of u..
Sorry if I've ever did something bad to u..
in short.. even though its a bit early..
Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri!!!
maaf zahir n batin!!
may u guys have a wonderful Raya!!!

XOXO

Selamat Hari Merdeka ke-53 Malaysia!

"Negaraku, tanah tumpahnya darahku,
rakyat hidup, bersatu dan maju,
rahmat bahgia, tuhan kurniakan,
raja kita selamat bertakhta,
rahmat bahgia, tuhan kurniakan,
raja kita, selamat bertakhta"

Selamat Hari Merdeka ke-53, Malaysia tercinta!
Happy 53rd Independance Day, beloved Malaysia!
May Allah bless Malaysia..
Malaysia is indeed the best place for all.. :)
Let us all work hard on maintaining wut we have had for 53 years..
n Insyaallah.. we can carry on d legacy for our children in the future..

-edited by me.... dats why its not dat cantik lah :) -

XOXO