Sunday, January 31, 2010


and now.. I'm hooked to glee..


it would be really sweet if..

I have sumone who would sing dis song to me when I'm feeling down..

Down - by Jay Sean feat. lil wayne

Baby are you down down down down down,
Downnnnnnn, downnnnnnn,
Even if the sky is falling down,
Downnnnn, downnnnn
Ooohhh (ohhh)

(Verse 1)
You oughta know, tonight is the night to let it go,
Put on a show, I wanna see how you lose control,

So leave it behind cause we, have a night to get away,
So come on and fly with me, as we make our great escape.

So baby dont worry, you are my only,
You wont be lonely, even if the sky is falling down,
Youll be my only, no need to worry,
Baby are you down down down down down,
Dowwwnnnnn, Dowwnnnnn,
Baby are you down down down down down,
Downnnnn, Downnnnnn,
Even if the sky is falling down,

(Verse 2)
Just let it be, come on and bring your body next to me,
Ill take you away, hey, turn this place into our private getaway,
So leave it behind cause we, have a night to get away,
So come on and fly with me, as we make our great escape,
(So why dont we run away)

So baby dont worry, you are my only,
You wont be lonely, even if the sky is falling down,
Youll be my only, no need to worry,
Baby are you down down down down down,
Dowwwnnnnn, Dowwnnnnn,
Baby are you down down down down down,
Downnnnn, Downnnnnn,
Even if the sky is falling down,

(Verse 3)
Lil Wayne:Even if the sky is falling down like she's supposed to be,
She gets down low for me,
Down like her temperature, cause to me she zero degrees,
She cold, overfreeze,
I got that girl from overseas,
Now she's my miss America,
Now can I be her solger please,
Im fighting for this girl,
On a battlefield of love,
She got me look like baby cupid sending arrows from above,
Dont you ever leave the side of me,
Indefinitely, not probably,
And honestly I'm down like the economy,

So baby dont worry, you are my only,
You wont be lonely, even if the sky is falling down,
You'll be my only, no need to worry,
Baby are you down down down down down,
Dowwwnnnnn, Dowwnnnnn,
Baby are you down down down down down,
Downnnnn, Downnnnnn,

Even if the sky is falling down,
Downnnnn, Downnnnn,

well.. off course i dunt expect sumone to actually meant it.. u know.. just d feelings..


wut I seriously felt at dis very moment


A strong persistent yearning or desire, especially one that cannot be fulfilled.



Drenched in blood and sweat, she kept running and running with all her might. There's no one in sight. Screaming for help would not do her any good. With the hope that god would answer her prayers for help, she kept running in that pitch black endless alley. Her tears are blurring her sight now. As her life kept flashing in front of her eyes, she stumbled onto something. Tripping over, even her adrenaline can't help her now . As fear conquered her, she cant even move a muscle. While holding tight to her locket, she clasp her mouth hoping that it would mask her presence there. The air is heavy. Her worst fear has strike her. The familiar dreadful atmosphere is covering her. She can heard the steps are closing in on her. There's nothing she can do. Tears are rolling down on her blood stained cheek. A dead silent atmosphere hit her. Its as if the the time has been stopped. Her surrounding turned cold as ice. The cold make it hard for her to breath. Distracted by the cold, she did not realize that something is really near to her now. As a pair of hands grabbed her, she screamed.


Saturday, January 16, 2010

Wut Makes Me Happy.. :)

today's saturday..
n we had our posting today..
shared d bus with seniors..
whom.. coincidentally turns out to be lateral entry students.. (same as us)
woohoo.. its time to change oppinions and advise..

last wednesday nite..
i went for a game of.... Futsal!!
yeay me!!
its my 1st time playing futsal.. and its in India.. ;p
owhh.. its public holiday here on thursday..
dats y we when on d wednesday nite..

owhh.. did I tell u guys about me playing netball last saturday?!
hahahaha.. its like hell..
it has been soo long since i've last play any games or do any 'real' exercising..
n soo.. with a so-so warming up routine..
I just went and play d game..
in my mind.. I was like.. d heck.. its only a 'suka2' game aight..

n sooo...
after playing 3 games of netball
d result was..
TORNED track pants (hehehe.. n dey called me d best GK.. hahaha)
i think i kinda overworked my hamstring.. n it still aches till today
but.. d good thing is..
I like playing games.. ;p
n i went for d futsal.. even though i'm not fully healed yet! hehehehe

owhh.. on d thursday itself.. I was like..
"owhh.. i think i wanna cook Nasi Lemak today"
but.. after 2 o'clock in d noon..
i was getting sooo drowsy n sleepy..
n all of a sudden..
I woke up at 5.30 pm... after a verrry long nap...
hahaha... silly silly nieda..

yesterday.. I went for a hair treatment with Ayin n Buddy..
walaa.. so syok laa d head massage dat dey gave us.. hehehe
but Buddy didn't like to be massage..
so I was like.. (in my mind off course)
"hahaha.. buddy hated to be massage.. i wonder how she manages to get thru with it"
n it was solar eclipse.. n we missed it..
but we kinda wondering why d tree shades are sooo pretty dat it looks like d fish scale..
n after we got back only we remember 'bout d solar eclipse..

n today... after getting back from my posting..
I was 'forced' (hahahaha) to lepak at buddy's house coz I forgot to ask for my house keys from my housemates..
n at 3pm only I managed to get into my home after herol came back..
(well.. its weekend.. n most of 'em indulge in shopping or strolling around)
n soo..
I finally..
cooked my Nasi Lemak..

yeay me!
even tho d rice is quite bland..
n d sambal is not as tasty as my mom's (i didn't put d belacan in.. but when we had our dinner just now... Unni told me dat she have belacan.. hahaha.. silly me again)
I must say dat..
I think.. it turns out to be pretty good.. ;p

oooh.. I wanna go n watch Sherlock Holmes tomorrow.. wish me luck in getting d tix! ;p


Tuesday, January 12, 2010

Happy Birthday, Iyman!!!

Happy BirThday to my dear lil' bro... Iyman!!
budak gendut dah masuk 11 taun.. ;p


Ouhhh.. emo much?!

dare to confess being an emotional driven person?
1st of all..
female human is allowed to be one aight?!
its gotta do with all d hormonal changes in the body..
n i think..
men also had their time.. being a lil' emotional..
wut d heck..
we r humans..
we r created n granted with emotion..

"Emotion is subjective experience, associated with mood, temperament, personality, and disposition. The English word 'emotion' is derived from the French word émouvoir. This is based on the Latin emovere, where e- (variant of ex-) means 'out' and movere means 'move'. The related term "motivation" is also derived from movere.A related distinction is between the emotion and the results of the emotion, principally behaviors and emotional expressions. People often behave in certain ways as a direct result of their emotional state, such as crying, fighting or fleeing. Yet again, if one can have the emotion without the corresponding behavior then we may consider the behavior not to be essential to the emotion." -Wikipedia


"An attitude is a hypothetical construct that represents an individual's degree of like or dislike for an item. Attitudes are generally positive or negative views of a person, place, thing, or event-- this is often referred to as the attitude object. People can also be conflicted or ambivalent toward an object, meaning that they simultaneously possess both positive and negative attitudes toward the item in question.

Attitudes are judgments. They develop on the ABC model (affect, behavior, and cognition). The affective response is an emotional response that expresses an individual's degree of preference for an entity. The behavioral intention is a verbal indication or typical behavioral tendency of an individual. The cognitive response is a cognitive evaluation of the entity that constitutes an individual's beliefs about the object. Most attitudes are the result of either direct experience or observational learning from the environment.

Unlike personality, attitudes are expected to change as a function of experience." -Wikipedia

"In a broader sense, "underdog" is used in reference to a social or ethnic group which experiences discrimination, persecution and/or economic disability" - Wikipedia

dis post might be a lil' weird..
but d heck..
its just wut i felt to write or quote at d moment..
hahaha.. I'm a wiki addict

owhoo.. while I'm listening to fly fm.. I heard dis song in d radio:
(hahaha... hey FLY fm.. look at how loyal I am to u guys... i listen to ur guys even when I'm in Bangalore)

Superman- five for fighting

wut to do.. wut to do?? we have soo many haters out there..
hahaha.. n i still wonder why all d contestants in pageant contest would call out world peace as a typical, stereotype answer..

~World PeacE~ (^-^)v


Monday, January 11, 2010


I dunno why but I like musics dat others would call creepy..
also loved watching clips dat others would call kinda creepy..
also loved d classical mysterious things..
kinda loved d Victorians gown..
ok.. two of d vid clips dat I loves to watch

Sign remix ver. by Brown Eyed Girl

Still Doll by Kanon Wakeshima

loves this dress:


Monday, January 4, 2010

~Happy New Year!!

anyang haseyo!! moshi-moshi!! hola!! namaste!! bonjour!! hello!!

it has been soooo long since i have last updated dis blog..
well.. frankly speaking..
i dunt even know if this humble abode of mine even have visitors anymore.. hehe

owhoo... first of all.. Happy 2010 everyone!!!!

2009 has been a good if not a great year for all of us.. I think..
personally.. I really think 2009 flew really fast right in front of my eyes..
with all d thesis writing..
with d great loss of my beloved grandfather..
with finishing my degree in the biomedicine in Shah Alam..
with me.. furthering my studies in Bangalore, India..
with some of my friends who have been married n building their own career..
with Micheal Jackson, Farrah Fawcett, Brittany Murphy and other demises celebrities and public figure..
yeah.. overall..
the year of 2009 have left a deep impression on me if not anyone else..

ok.. last 2 weeks..
i have my so called winter holiday..
(well.. to sum things up.. it was supposed to be our winter holiday.. but it was cancelled last minute.. but d heck.. i've bought my tickets.. n hell no am I going to burn d tix ;p)
n guess wut?!
i went back to my beloved country.... Malaysia!!!!!

hahaha.. everyone was like....
"wut d heck.. u 've only been there for 2 months and u r already coming back home?"
guess wut guys..




well.. as d saying goes.. there's no place like home.. and it is indeed true..
where else in d world can u find d best nasi lemak, yong tau foo, cendol, char kuew tiow, murtabak, sup tulang, durian... etc
u can only find all those things in Malaysia..

its true when dey said that people only appreciate things dat dey had after they loose it..
to be honest..
i think i'm one of those peoples...
i really am missing my days in Shah Alam now..

when I was form 1..
I was admitted into a rancangan khas school.. which requires d students to stay in d hostel..
its kinda like a boarding school..
to tell u d truth..
i've never liked living in dormitories.. hostels n all dat..
i hate d stupid rules like.. u cant be on d public phone for more than 10 minutes..
u have to greet d seniors..
seniors are always right..
bla bla bla..
n to think dat i've spent 5 years of my live living in hostels..
i was quite proud at dat achievement actually..
i can't even think how d hell i've survived d 5 years..
but truthfully.. living in hostels has thought me a lot about life..

wanna know a secret?!
bcoz i really hate living in hostels..
I always think dat d period I'm staying there is just like a dream..
n I only woke up from d dream when I'm back home..
n now.. i felt d same way too..
when I'm here in Bangalore.. i really felt like it was just a dream...
n hope dat d 4 n 1/2 years would just pass by quickly..
like I reallyhope there's a remote like in d Click movie where I can just fast forward my life..
n when I go back home... to my family..
only then that I felt like I'm awaken..
call me Crybaby or weak..
i honestly dont care anymore

well after being called annoying.. sellfish.. pathetic n all d words dat i can't really remember.. after i've tried my best being in society.. n tried my best to be useful to others..


well.. sumtimes.. i really do think I'm a lil' pathetic..
but d heck..
being treated like dat since small.. I just dont care anymore..

hey.. dat could be my new year resolution...! :)
stop being bullied n stepped on by others!!
oook.. ganbattei nieda!!

btw.. as sum of u might know..
i've got my fees refund from d MSU of my previous BBM course sum up to about RM7000++
n soo.. when I get back to Malaysia.. i bought myself sum new clothes... sum new shoes.. :)
My Studded Gladiator Wedges from Vincci

n silly.. silly me..
with all d Christmas n end year sale....
I forgot to buy myself a perfume... huhuhuuhuhuhu
owhh.. i bought myself a camera.. :)

Sony cybershot DSC-W190

when I got back home.. arrived on 12am on saturday of 19th december..
my dad picked me up at lcct..
n to be honest..
i think airasia's stewardess uniform is a bit too sexy in portraying malaysia's image..
oops.. forget bout dat..

d pic i managed to snap using my phone's camera in AirIndia aircraft
(dunt u think d cloud look really fluffy n make u think like u wanna lie on them?!?! ;p)

on d saturday nite..
we had our own BBQ nite under our porch..
Ikan Kelah Bakaq..
truly madly in love with d taste!!
d flesh is super delicious n juicy..
we also ate roasted Ikan Tengas a few days later.. n it is also superb! ;p
I also went for a shopping trip to KL with my sisters :)

uhh.. ohh.. i also bought myself a bracelet with blue topaz stones on it.. it costs me Rs 3000++
i fell in love at first sight with it.. but it didnt look soo good when i snap d pic.. so cant show u how beautiful is it... :)

uhh.. ohh.. i also change my long locks with a shorter do... n its kinda hideous.. hehehe..
guess I'll buy myself a straightener n straighten my hair by myself.. ;p

hurmm.. my new year resolution..
guess i'll try to do these things:
-study more
-njoy my study
-njoy India as it is
-think and act my age
-lose a couple of weight ;p
-stop being soo nice to people
-being more strict with myself

BTW.. have u guys heard Brick by Boring brick by paramore?
i really think dat song has a really deep meaning to it.. try listen to it.. OK ;)

and not forgetting.. a few hillarious cross dressing clips from kpop scene.. :) njoy!

hahahahahaha.. d famous boy gourps in korea merge to do a parody of 2009's girl groups dance hits.. u might cringe at d idea of it.. but it really cracks me up....

ohh.. It take me longer than I thought of writing dis post..
I think I'll stop here for now..
May u guys n girls have a great year...
n wish me d best of luck for dis 2010!! :)

(^^)v PEaCE OuT (^^)v

[i'm soooo sad i couldn't manage to watch Avatar, new moon, cirque du freak n sherlock holmes while I'm in Malaysia]