Flutters

Its kinda suffocating to look back and realize how fast has d time moved..

Its kinda funny when u looked back and laugh at d things dat at one point of ur life, u will literally screamed and hyperventilate at d thought of having those things..

Its kinda funny when suddenly, there's a little voice in u dat whispers to u dat.. ur too old for some things now..

Its kinda touching, when u saw a middle aged couple, whom d husband is just soo patient and kind in nursing his sick wife on d sick bed..

Its kinda nostalgic when u saw kids just carefreely play and laughs..

Its kinda saddening, thinking dat someday.. at some point of ur life.. u have to take charge and responsibility

Its kinda saddening when a lil' voice in u kept telling u dat u r a dissapointment..

Its kinda revolting when some people keep on taking advantage of u..

"Smile, though your heart is aching
Smile, even though it's breaking
When there are clouds in the sky
You'll get by...
If you smile
With your fear and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You'll find that life is still worthwhile if you'll just...
Light up your face with gladness
Hide every trace of sadness
Although a tear may be ever so near
That's the time you must keep on trying
Smile, what's the use of crying
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you'll just...
Smile, though your heart is aching
Smile, even though it's breaking
When there are clouds in the sky
You'll get by...
If you smile
Through your fear and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you'll just Smile...
That's the time you must keep on trying
Smile, what's the use of crying
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you'll just Smile"

XOXO

Chotto Matte Kudasai

It has been soooo long since dis blog has been updated..
will try my best to update dis weekend :)
gotta run now..
gotta test n a whole lotta things to do..
Run Nieda Run.. nieda run
(hahahaha... Glee much?)

XOXO

Human Punching Bag

no matter wut u think or do or feel..
people would always come back to u.. to punch u..
coz.. u r d only one who can take it all without breaking on d outside..

XOXO

Oh shit.. not again!!

As usual..
as I was procrastinating before I put my ass on d chair in fornt of my study desk..
(i have a test on wut-ever-com-med dis tuesday)
I started youtubing..
and I stumbled across some of The GazettE's vids..
and as expected..
my fangirling switch has been turned on by the oh-so-smexy-ruki-uruha-aoi-kai-reita rocking one hella stage donning d oh-so-cool-kimono
n soo..
there goes my studying..
frankly speaking..
I did do some studying..
but its not on d vast subject called medicine..
i just prefer to study bout the GazettE more.. ;p
n so.. here's their show from last year's PSC carnival..
ohh.. how I wish I could be there..

dont u just love the opening title? it is soooo haunting me.. just lurves ruki's laugh

ook.. i'm not only into dis kind of rock things..
so.. I've also stumbled upon a couple of korean pop song which I kinda like...

Smiling GoodBye by Soya & Sun


As a Man by Gummy

and i just lurvessss dis drama sooo much.. saranghae Lee Min Ho!

Personal Preference/ Personal Taste

XOXO

Complex.. Sugoii!

"Bitter heart, bitter heart tries to keep it all inside,
Bitter heart, bitter heart shadows will help you try to hide,
Bitter heart, my bitter heart is gettin' just a little fragile,
Bitter heart, bitter heart of mine."

bitter heart- Zee Avi

i'm sure dat most of us if not all have ever felt d way how d lyrics are narrated..
since I was small..
Its kinda hard for me to find a place and friends where I can really fit in..
I'll ended up hurt and disappointed..
so.. through out my life..
I am kinda used to d feeling of being disappointed..
its up to the point where sometimes I think dat suicide might be d best answer..
Sometimes.. i think i'm kinda incapable of hoping anymore

XOXO

Holiday-ing?!

Holiday?
What defines a person's holiday?
Having a break from all d chaotic life and just take times to relax leisurely at home?
Went back home and spend quality time with family & friends?
Go and have some fun in the sun with friends?
Being chased by an elephant, instead of watching elephants in their natural habitat?
Go out all days.. shopping, partying and doing all d hoola baloo thingy with friends/ strangers?
whatever it is.. everyone have their own choices on how they want to spend their holidays..
as for me..
In my efforts of being a better, mature and responsible adult..
I tried to teach myself to not being soo homesick-ly and decided that I will not going back to Malaysia..
(well.. that's a part of the reason.. I'm also trying to prove to my dad that I can be far away from home for more than 3 months)
and so.. I've spent 6 days touring around Kerala along with 6 of my shopaholic girlfriends..
hurmm..
to be fair.. I'll say dat d place dat we visited in Kerala is similar to Malaysia in one way or another..
as example.. we went to Munnar Hill which is similar to Cameron Highland in a way dat they're both highlands and have a lot of tea plantation..
but Munnar is huge...
its beautiful..
n d forest there is quite different from the forest dat we have in Malaysia and Bangalore..

after d problematic 10 hours bus ride - our 1st attempt in riding public transport going interstate in India(we're 45 minutes late and d bus has already gone.. but overall.. the service is OK)
we arrived in Kerala.. where we went to d agent's office to settle all d payment..
n at about 4.30 am we began our long journey to Munnar..
it took us 4 hours to reach Munnar..
it was worth it..
and I have to say that all the breathtaking scenery has already taken all my stress away..
snap.. snap.. snap!!
camwhoring session all the way..
we were in Munnar for 2 nights..
stayed in Deshadan Mountain resort..
its located on one of d Munnar Hills peak..
n after Munnar..
d next location in our itinerary is Allepey..

Kerala - God's own country <-- as called by d locals is really famous with its backwater..
i cant really seem to find the right malay words for backwater.. muara perhaps?
d houseboat is really nice.. kinda superb I think..
to think that a 3 standard 3 star hotel room can be fitted onto a boat is kinda amazing.. well.. apart from d really hot weather..
d cruise was kinda calming and relaxing..
we only spent 1 night in d houseboat..

and then off we went to thrivandrum for a beach getaway..
at the Kovalam Beach..
we stayed in a 4 star hotel.. Uday Samudra Beach Resort..
d hotel is super fine.. but d beach is just OK for me..
well.. its kinda hard to impressed 7 malaysian girls whom have witnessed heavenly beautiful beaches with golden sands back in Malaysia aight?!
hehehehe... spent 2 nights there.. ate a whole lot of seafoods.. including LOBSTER!!
n malang x berbau..
3 of us have to be admitted to hospitals due to poisoning on our last day there.. but we refused coz we have a bus to catch dat evening..
n so.. they were only given 3 bottles of IV drip.. hehehe..
were late again.... for our bus..
fortunately.. our mr driver @k@ guide managed to stop the bus just in time..
urghh.. 15 hours in bus.. n d road is like jalan kampung in Malaysia..
n d driver keeps on driving rashly..
d results ----- NAUSEA AND VOMITTING!!!!!
being as the weird one in d group is kinda party pooper moment..
so.. sorry girls if I've ever ruined ur holiday mood during our trip..
in short.. except for all d mishaps.. I seriously enjoy the trip! ;)

XOXO

Shopaholic Takes Kerala..

today..
7 girls from Bangalore..
n to b more specific..
7 shopaholics will go on a 5 days trip to Kerala!!

XOXO

Glamorous Sky..

all of sudden..
I got dis yearning feeling on looking back n checking out Mika Nakashima's Glamorous Sky vid..
n off course.. youtube is d 1st place to search.. hahaha
(and there goes 3 hours wasted youtubing)
well.. Glamorous Sky is d soundtrack from Nana the movie..
an adaptation of manga of the same name by Ai Yazawa..
(Gosh.... I lurve d manga.. its about friendship and life)
and ironically..
dis song is d one dat made me fall in love with d visual kei scene..
(hahaha.. even tho' mika nakashima does not belong to the visual kei scene.. well.. hyde-sama wrote d song... n soo.. that was d trigger of my obsession over Visual Kei scene.. hahaha.. and Ika was like d catalyst)

Nana starring Mika Nakashima - Glamorous sky


the version sung by Hyde with VAMPS
(OMG... hyde is sooooo sexy in dis vid)

p/s: uhh ohh.. i don't do very well on my 1st paper.. good luck to all n wish me d best of luck!

XOXO

Miyavi~sama

Daily dose of Visual Kei
Miyavi...
one more guy who are seriously pretty like a girl and extremely talented..
hahaha.. he just got a daughter last year..
just take a look and listen to his crazy hella good guitar skill

XOXO

Try To Copy Me

gaga-ish or not..
this video is super hot..
its like d 2NE1 girls are having all d fun while acting all dorky n asked anyone to copy 'em if they have d courage..
now dats a real girl power! (^o^)v
n love d part where Dara shoot and chase d 2 stormtroopers.. EPIC! hahaha
n love d jungle part.. PRRRRAAHHHHH!!

Try To Copy Me/ Try To Follow Me [2ne1]

XOXO