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so freakin' in love with TOP..

but GD's cute too..

daesung's getting hotter.. :)

(dis song got stucked in my mind n I kept replaying it in my mind.. when I was thinking of wut to write on my exam's paper)

XOXO

24

on a rest for 2 days.. before d next paper..
n might I say dat..
d papers are really killers dude..
If is in d game.. n all of us have dat life status on top of us.. i think..
each one paper I've taken would've reduced my life by 10%..
hahaha.. if dats true.. I'm gonna be dead by 15th march.. hahaha..
ohh.. maybe some 10-15% of it will be there.. bcoz of recharge bonuses like sleep, eating, shopping and fangirling.. ;p

while I'm waiting for my heater to be ready for my bath.. (hahahahahahaha... CORNY)
I've been reflecting a lil' bit..
as i ages gracefully through my life (hahahahahahahaha... double CORNY)


hahaha.. ok.. ok enough with d lame lines..
I've been getting a lot of engagement and marriage invitation from my friends..
I guess.. I'm at d age where peeps are starting to get serious about their life..
n while I'm here..
behaving soooooo far from being an adult..
(hahahahahahahaha... well.. even though its tough.. i gotta say.. I love my student life.. I just need to worry about my studies.. hahahaha.. or should i say.. I love d money, I love d way we can enjoy ourselves..)
all of my friends have started building their career, building a family..
I wish all of 'em d very best..
n no.. seriuosly.. I dont really care or jealous about getting married..
I am damn mad because I can't attend to most of their invitations.. T.T

so to the peoples out there.. around my age..
good luck! n all d best!
 for my friends who may or may not remember me.. good luck! :)

XOXO

Delusion

I'm having a seriously weird but kinda happy dream last nite..
geez.. no.. its not a wet dream! haha
does d dream indicates my deepest desire?
d heck.. travel d world! (^-^)v

XOXO

Imipramine..

Its been ages since I wrote my last entry..
and.. as u can see
through a series of suggestive gloomy entries..
Some of u might've guessed..
dis girl is depressed..
yup..
I'm officially declaring myself as a distressed person....

hahaha.. what the heckk..
as if I'm d only distressed person in d world..

well.. I've been through my 3rd IA...
and as i have guessed..
I barely pass 3 of d papers..
n unfortunately failed pathology..
n  now.. I'm only a week away from my fnal professional 2nd year mbbs examination..
n I've been wasting 1 week..
doing everything.. except studying..

Have i told u guys dat I am really bad at managing my stress & dissapointment?
well..
I guess I'm d only one who know how bad I handle things..

ok.. enough bout my so called problem..
hahaha.. last thursday nite..
we went for a movie..
No Strings Attached.. starring ashton kutcher n natalie portman..
n...
oOOoheEmmMGeeee!!!
dey seriously didn't cut any adult rated scene in d movies here.. (as I forgot again.. dat dis is not malaysia)
hahaha..
I think..
if d light was on..
ppl would see how d 4 of us girls.. sitting there blushing..
trying to control our 'machoness' watching d so called 18sx scene
(actually.. in my defense.. they're not actually naked.. but u know.. all d sexually suggestive sound n moves n expression.. hahaha)
ok..
I'm not gonna take d blame alone..
so...
I'll tell u guys with whom I watched  d movie..
~BudDy~
~SyaFizA~
~TqAh HamdaN~

but in d movies.. there r a group of medical students..
n I quote one of d characters dialogue..
"Don't be ashamed.. We dont care if u r naked.. we've seen plenty.. in fact hundreds of p***s"
"In fact.. I've seen thousands.."

hahaha.. well.. we r a group of medical students

XOXO

The World That They Live In

 "I need another story
Something to get off my chest
My life gets kinda boring
Need something that I can confess"

wish me d best of luck for my 2nd year MBBS final exam!! :)

Sonnet I


That thereby beauty's rose might never die,
But as the riper should by time decease,
His tender heir might bear his memory:
But thou contracted to thine own bright eyes,
Feed'st thy light's flame with self-substantial fuel,
Making a famine where abundance lies,
Thy self thy foe, to thy sweet self too cruel:
Thou that art now the world's fresh ornament,
And only herald to the gaudy spring,
Within thine own bud buriest thy content,
And, tender churl, mak'st waste in niggarding:
   Pity the world, or else this glutton be,
   To eat the world's due, by the grave and thee.

XOXO

Lets Fly

my favorite songs at the moment

Rocketeer - Far East Movement

Love Seat - Wheesung & Humming Urban Stereo

Oh Yeah - GD & TOP feat. Park Bom

p/s: oh yeah.. I'm stressed!!! epic SG!

XOXO

Conscience

Growing up as d 1st child..
I've always been put up with sum kinda responsibilities..
n soo..
I ended up being who I am today..
a person with lots of conscience..
well..
in short..
there's one term dat d youngsters in Malaysia use nowadays..
SKEMA

In school..
I never play truant..
even though I didn't concentrate in class..
even though I'm d only one attending..
I will still go to d class..
why..?
just simply because..
GUILT

When my family and I went for shopping...
while my sisters and brothers was asking for branded apparels n expensive toys..
I will always be the one who keep on calculating n putting things back on their rack when I realised its kinda expensive..
I will always be the one who are concerned about money..
I guess..
u can just call me..
so freakin' tight up..

I will always worry about d other party when I cannot meet their expectation..
I will always felt there's a very good reason behind everything.. even though my mind told me.. there isn't
I will always felt sorry for d person who've been unfortunately scold by me..
When sumthing happens.. I will always be the one who gives in..
When peoples asks sumthing from me.. n I know they're just taking advantage on me.. I just go with it..
In the end.. I will always be the one who will be forgotten.. 

...how I wish I can just forget about it...


XOXO

Retrospective

as I looked back..
23 years of my life..

Shit...

is all I can say..

XOXO

Insomnia

dont u think dat dis song is kinda cute?!

Insomnia

[by Humming Urban Stereo]

taking a nap all day long
there's nobody disturbs me
but i just can't feel free

there's no hope there's no despair
only the anger remained into my heart

there's no chance and there's no clue
you've gone so faraway
i'm hiding myself from you

i hate myself who can't stop loving you
i feel so stupid
beacuse i'm still in love with you

fall over precipice but there's
no one can rescue me
my heart has broken two pieces
i can't love you anymore

it's hard for me to go on my life without you
i'm suffering from insomnia
i'm dying day and day 

XOXO

nu ABO

owhoo.. its 2011 y'all!! ;p
a friend of mine..
scold me..
"Nieda... go n update ur blog!!!"
hehehe... thanx mate!
I tot i dunt have any visitors anymore..

so.. I know it's a lil' late..
but.. d heck..
HAPPY NEW YEAR.. 2011!!

as usual.. everyone reflect on their previous year when d year comes to an end..
as for me..
I dunt think I made any improvement or changes in my life..
except for taking an aerobic class..
d same old lazy immature unattractive me..

but as all d people in d world..
I do hope dat dis new year would bring me a better life..
I'm gonna have a major exam in less than 1 month..
n i haven't started studying anything..

last monday..
I went to an optical store to make a new spectacles..
n d optician asked me..
"ur age madam?"
i stuttered n after a minute... said... "I'm 24"
hahaha.. I meant to answer 23..
but just then I realised..
hey.. its 2011 already.. n ur gonna be 24..
n I was like.. wth.. i just turned 23 a couple months back..
but I guess.. I should've started to act n think like an adult..
I aged gracefully.. <--- dunt u think dat dis is d lamest reason dat a celebrity can give when they're accused of taking botox or going under d knife to looked younger


hehehe.. n soo..
where should I go dis coming holiday eh??
frankly speaking... I'm kinda jealous watching peoples went to korea, japan,europe, down under, NZ, vacationing.. playing snow..
but i just dunt have dat kind of money nor peoples who wants to go with me..
well.. i guess..
i can just hope dat I would have win any holiday packages..
well..
its a bonus if I can go with any of my favorite celebrities aight??
(hahahaha... dats d most childish dream for someone like me to have)

last night..
we kinda host a BBQ party at our house..
not many peeps turn out..
but its ok.. they're bz studying i guess..we do kinda tell everyone about it a lil late..
n soo.. d BBQ party..
turned into sum kinda of a campfire gathering.. (without d campfire of course..)
we talked n talked n talked until dawn..
haha.. i kinda fall asleep at 5 am..
hahahahahahahahaha..
n d most embarassing thing is..
I SNORES.. kinda loud..
hahahahaha...
gomenne guys..
my blocked nasal cavity might have caused d snoring..

ok..  I better start gathering my will to start study ..
peace out! (^-^)v

p/s: I'm sooo hooked into a korean drama.. tittled Secret garden!! I LURVESSS TOP from BIGBANG!!!!!

XOXO