c'est la vie... joie de vivre

Ange ou Démon

2012-02-13T22:49:00.001+05:30

Playing angels or demons..

his voice..

just wraps us around his finger..

Hyde-sama!

daisuki!

(^o^)

Angel's Tale - Hyde

warning: EXPLICIT CONTENTS

haha.. seriously?

Devil Side - Vamps

XOXO

Queen of Hearts

2012-02-13T20:46:00.000+05:30

This morning..

when I was on d bus..

on my way to the hospital..

I managed to stage an outrageous scenario in my head..

I dunt wanna tell d details..

but it involves..

a prince..

a wicked storyline..

an imaginary will from supposedly great-great ancestors..

a proposal..

a retaliation..

and..

all of that...

occurs within 5 minutes..

in my mind..

n when I think back..

I had also staged multiple scenarios..

repeatedly in my head..

that involves..

a visual kei rocker/ a korean star..

a wicked storyline..

an imaginary accidents..

a proposal..

and dat makes me think..

whoa..

approaching 25 and still doing these kinds of thing..

I AM UNDOUBTEDLY THE KING OF DAYDREAMERS!

oops..

my mom corrected me on FB n asked me..

why r u a king n not a queen?

n i answered..

because king sounds greater than queen..

n she said..

queen is definitely more powerful..

and if that's not d case..

then..

why is there such a term as QUEEN CONTROL..

and soo..

I AM DEFINITELY UNDOUBTEDLY THE QUEEN WHEN IT COMES TO DAYDREAMING!

\(^o^)/

XOXO

Gone

2012-02-12T17:06:00.000+05:30

I've been sitting here..

can't get u off my mine..

i've try my best to be good and be strong..

I drive myself insane wishing I could see ur face..

but d truth remain..

ur gone..

XOXO

Inception

2012-02-11T12:30:00.000+05:30

During my high school years..

I stayed at d hostel for 5 years..

I hated it..

despised it..

rules.. rules.. rules..

so..

I kinda developed this thinking..

"come on nieda.. this is only a dream.. u can make it"

whenever I'm in d hostel..

and I used to think..

whenever I went back home..

"ok.. now.. I can wake up from my dreams.."

"this is real... and d times in d hostels is just dreams"

and I haven't felt that way when I went to my matriculation college..

neither when i went to UKM..

nor when I went to MSU shah alam for my 1st degree...

but now..

I think..

I've kinda felt dat way again..

and I just wanna wake up from this dream badly..

huhu..

I wanna go home... T.T

p/s: even though I hated hostel life.. i miss d moments... I seriously learnt about life and world from my life in hostel.

XOXO

Rivers

2012-02-05T20:36:00.000+05:30

That moment..

when u cried a river..

just by listening to some Zikir..

and Nasyeed..

somehow..

u know..

ur heart..

ur mind..

ur soul..

ur body..

are deprived..

dehydrated..

from what we called..

food for our souls..

or d western peoples like to called it..

chicken soup for souls..

O Mighty Allah..

forgive me for my ignorance..

forgive me for my negligence..

forgive me for forgetting my responsibilities as a caliph on ur earth...

lead me to ur way..

O Muhammad..

forgive this ignorant ummah..

لا إله إلا الله، محمد رسول الله

Salam Maulidur Rasul

XOXO

ISWAK

2012-02-05T20:24:00.000+05:30

My Favorite all-time drama..

It Started With a Kiss

from taiwan.... :)

(dunt quite like d sequel though)

Jiang Zhi Shu... wo ai ni!! :)

XOXO

Exhibit A

2012-01-29T16:33:00.000+05:30

doesn't leave much impression..

unnoticeable..

forgettable..

but..

peoples seems to search for u..

in every nook and corner..

when..

they need u for something..

but after that..

they..

kind of..

barely..

remembers your name..

XOXO

Touché

2012-01-27T21:43:00.000+05:30

That awkward moment..

when..

u realize that..

ur gonna be in..

some sort of..

triple date..

but in actuality..

its a double and a half date..

n u r d 'half' one..

HA-HA

XOXO

Prosperity!

2012-01-22T20:44:00.000+05:30

Today..

happiness comes to me..

in a small box..

brought by farah..

imported from Malaysia..

I smile like a fool..

after having dis burger...

after almost 2 years..

Thanx a lot farah!

u r d bestest friend ever!

(^-^)v

Beef Prosperity Burger

uhhh.. ohh..
almost forget..
GONG XI FA CAI!
HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!

XOXO

Paradise

2012-01-22T19:09:00.001+05:30

Sometimes..

Peoples asked me..

"why are u so ~~obsessed with~~ into this Kpop or Japan thingy?"

and then I heard someone says..

"owhh.. usually d ones who are obsessed into these thingy are d ones who are ~~lonely, single and~~ dont have anything better to do"

and what did I do upon hearing dat?

nothing....

bcoz.. i have once stood up for my belief..

and instead..

I got mocked by my own family..

so I've decided to let it go..

and once again..

a guy asked me..

"whats in d industries dat u liked it soo much?"

my answer..

simple..

IT'S FUN..

IT MAKES ME LAUGH..

IT MAKES ME FORGET THE WORLD FOR A MOMENT..

so..

whenever u think of bashing someone's hobby..

think again..

not everyone have the privilege..

to not be such a hikkikomori..

and liked by everyone..

everyone must've their own reason to do wutever they do..

XOXO

Kuma!

2012-01-15T15:26:00.000+05:30

hahaha..

my 1st attempt on video making..

XOXO

Eargasm!

2012-01-14T21:55:00.000+05:30

pure awesomeness...

effin' EPIC!

The GazettE - ride with the rockers NLSB '11 final

XOXO

미안

2012-01-14T19:43:00.000+05:30

Dear family and friends..

please forgive me for being such a disappointment..

a freakin' hideous monster..

inside out..

XOXO

2012

2012-01-03T16:29:00.000+05:30

woohoo..

its 2012!

getting older.. yes

wiser? not so much

owhh..

lets try not to be too dormant dis year!

full power ahead!

p/s: a self reminder... penat2 kerajaan bagi duit banyak2 pegi blaja kat negare org.. jangan buat bende bukan2....

XOXO

GazeRock!!!

2011-12-10T19:47:00.000+05:30

one word..

effin' awesome!!!!

(haha.. its 2 words actually)

DIM scene

the GazettE Nameless Liberty Six Guns 2010 tokyo dome final

XOXO

In another life

2011-11-27T14:13:00.000+05:30

This sucks..

Real bad..

XOXO

Glimpse

2011-11-25T01:15:00.000+05:30

peoples talk..

peoples walk..

why can't peoples just make peace?

XOXO

Air Bubbles

2011-11-18T18:32:00.000+05:30

Sometimes..

u couldn't help..

but wonders..

did a mere creature..

created..

just to make others happy..

and..

dissapears..

only to appear..

again..

when needed..

no matter..

what d mere creatures..

are feeling..

or doing..

d only thing it knows is..

they are happy..

when they can make others happy..

Peoples forget..

Peoples mocked..

Peoples take advantage of what they had..

Peoples manipulate others without realizing it..

Let us be a thoughtful person..

Let us takes a glimpse at others' suffering..

Let us view the world in a whole new perspective..

Just treat others as how u want to be treated by others..

XOXO

Hikkikomori

2011-11-08T21:17:00.001+05:30

Avoidant Personality Disorder

People with avoidant personality disorder often consider themselves to be socially inept or personally unappealing and avoid social interaction for fear of being ridiculed, humiliated, rejected, or disliked.

People with avoidant personality disorder are preoccupied with their own shortcomings and form relationships with others only if they believe they will not be rejected. Loss and rejection are so painful that these individuals will choose to be lonely rather than risk trying to connect with others.

Hypersensitivity to rejection/criticism
Self-imposed social isolation
Extreme shyness or anxiety in social situations, though the person feels a strong desire for close relationships
Avoids physical contact because it has been associated with an unpleasant or painful stimulus
Feelings of inadequacy
Severe low self-esteem
Self-loathing
Mistrust of others
Emotional distancing related to intimacy
Highly self-conscious
Self-critical about their problems relating to others
Problems in occupational functioning
Lonely self-perception, although others may find the relationship with them meaningful
Feeling inferior to others
In some more extreme cases — agoraphobia
Utilizes fantasy as a form of escapism and to interrupt painful thoughts

Strangely.. I possessed 11 of d characteristics mentioned above.. am I one of 'em?

XOXO

Psychiatry?

2011-11-05T21:28:00.000+05:30

When u think dat u have done nothing..

a perfect statue..

and peoples keep on talking to u in anger..

its pretty damn exhausting..

XOXO

Feverish?

2011-10-24T21:59:00.002+05:30

Ok..
today's marked d start of a new system..
implemented by my college..
but..
its quite hectic..
as everyone seems to be soo confused about d schedule and modules and all..
ended up.. doing clinical postings from 8am to 5pm..
its exhausting... mentally n physically..
franly speaking..
we were more tired of waiting..
instead of d postings..

all in all..
Tablo from Epik High release his 1st album as a solo artist..
and..
I simply lurves it..
well.. here's d tracklist:
1. Home (feat. Lee Sora)
2. It's Bad (feat. Jinsil)
3. Airbag (feat. Naul)
4. Tide (Scratch by DJ Friz)
5. From the Bottom (feat. Bumkey)

and...

from track 2..

d girl's voice is really haunting me..

as in a good way..

just simply lurves it..

XOXO

Say Kimchi!

2011-10-23T17:31:00.000+05:30

Last night..

I found myself a new baby..

haha..

well..

I bought him..

n...

here he is!

Sony Cybershot DSC-HX100V

hehe.. well...

its not a DSLR..

I dont know much about photography..

neither am I a professional..

but..

I just think its cool.. :)

here are some shots taken..

alamak...!

class gonna starts tomorrow.. :(

XOXO

Gomen-ne

2011-10-22T01:50:00.001+05:30

as I don't know what to write..

i'll keep posting some of the videos that I've kinda lurves...

so.. dis is a japanese version of I'm Sorry by Gummy..

n for d 1st time..

i'll think dat d japanese version of a korean song is kinda good..

and in fact.. better..

well.. Gummy's d best in doing ballads..

n TOP is hot as hell! ;p

(well.. a friend of mine who rarely says dat korean man are hot went on and says he's damn hot when she saw his pic in my iPod)

I'm Sorry by Gummy feat. TOP

XOXO

Remember The Urge

2011-10-22T01:44:00.000+05:30

Oook.. dis particular song is actually older than the suicide circus..

I've forgot to make a post about it..

gomen-ne Uruha-san, ruki-kun, kai-sama, aoi-san to reita-kun!

Remember The Urge by The GazettE

XOXO

Suicide in a Circus?

2011-10-20T22:25:00.000+05:30

The GazettE is back!

n as usual..

they're freakin' awesome..

Suicide Circus by The GazettE

XOXO

VK Disney? Sugoi!!

2011-10-16T01:36:00.002+05:30

well..

a bunch of visual kei bands do remakes of disney's classic songs..

firts thought..

Wutta?!?!!?!

after actually hearing it..

its freakin' awesome man...

here's my personal favorite...

plastic tree..

doing a cover of chim chim cherrey..

d tracklist:

1- NIGHTMARE - Fantasia [Fantasia]
2- NIGHTMARE - A Friend like me [Aladdin]
3- kawamura ryuuichi - Beauty and the Beast [Beauty and the Beast]
4- PENICILLIN - Hawaiian Roller Coaster Ride [Lilo & Stitch]
5- Plastic Tree - Chim Chim Cher-ee [Mary Poppins]
6- Sadie - This is Halloween [Nightmare Before Christmas]
7- aoi - Can You Feel the Love Tonight [The Lion King]
8- THE KIDDIE - Supercalifragilisticexpialidocious [Mary Poppins]
9- NINJAMAN JAPAN - When You Wish Upon a Star [Pinocchio]
10- CASCADE - Heigh-Ho [Snow White and the Seven Dwarfs]
11- DASEIN - You'll be in My Heart [Brother Bear]

XOXO

Lumos

2011-10-05T19:27:00.000+05:30

Dear book publishers...

If u guys produce a collector's edition with a nice adult cover for Harry Potter..

I would definitely buy it..

No matter how many Harry Potter's book i've already bought..

but please make d price a lil' reasonable..

i'm 24..

n i'm still a student..

i still live with my parents..

(well.. at least in a year i stay with my parents for about 1 month)

v (^-^) v

AAAAAAaaaaaaaaaAAAAAAAAAAA...

2nd IA just stab me from d back.. hahaha

XOXO

Sixth Sense anyone?

2011-09-29T23:42:00.000+05:30

Brown Eyed Girls is back!

well..

i just lurves this new song by them..

BTW.. they freakin' kill d song with d 3 parts high note done by Jea, Ga In n Narsha..

well.. some peoples said dat its just a whistling voice or something?

d heck..

i didn't study vocal..

but I just think dat its pretty awesome to be able to do that..

n damn.. they r HOT! :)

enjoy!

Sixth Sense by Brown Eyed Girls

XOXO

Shining Star

2011-09-27T20:59:00.000+05:30

At a certain point of my life..

I would just wish..

dat I can be good at certain something..

Shine with certain something..

finding my niche..

rather than wishing being good at everything..

which I know..

is kind of impossible for me..

but somehow..

I didn't even get to be good at one thing..

rather than shining..

it flopped..

well..

let's just say..

I felt exactly d same as Clumsy Smurf..

XOXO

Asura Balbata

2011-09-13T21:35:00.000+05:30

Holy %#*&!
Its already mid September...
Just tell me..
How couldn't d time passes more slowly..
instead it flies by..
just like a jet..
and without realising it..
my 2nd IA is in less than 2 weeks..
and as usual..
instead of studying..
I'm glued in front of my laptop.. doing everything..
except studying..

ok.. put 'em aside..
I am soooo in love with LeeSsang's Asura Balbata album..
d whole album is just EPIC
well..
people mocked me..
for being so obsessed in korean and japanese pop culture..
what can I do?
they said that d japanese and korean are just copying d americans..
well..
hello... there's hip-hop in every language..
there's RnB in every language..
there's Pop in every language..

just simply lurves d song and vid! :)

Turned off d TV - LeeSsang feat. Tasha & Kwon JungYeol of 10cm

Ook... I really have to force myself now..

I failed 2 of my paper in my 1st IA..

well.. I guess I'm not dat intelligent to be seating for an exam without studying..

ooooh... I forgot.. I am now... wearing.... wait for it...

BRACES! (damn.. it really hurts! ;p)

and last but not least..

to whomever who still reads my crappy post..

let us change d world and be a better person! (I think I've been kinda outta my mind bcoz of d pain dis braces are giving me.. ;p)

XOXO

Merdeka Raya!

2011-09-05T21:34:00.000+05:30

huwaaaaaaaaaaaa..

holiday over already!

anyway..

enjoy dis one.. a remake of american boy by kanye west..

done by malaysian..

Malaysian Boy

XOXO

I dont care.. eh.. eh.. eh.. eh.. eh..

2011-08-17T21:43:00.002+05:30

Superlike!

XOXO

Douchebag

2011-08-15T17:43:00.000+05:30

Needed..

everything seems to be perfect..

Tossed..

everything seems to be insufficient..

Disgust..

everything seems to be at fault..

Hate..

everything seems to fade..

XOXO

Amor

2011-08-11T21:42:00.000+05:30

They say dat..

to be respected by others..

u need to respect urself first..

to be liked by others..

u need to like urself first..

to be loved by others..

u need to love urself first..

I guess..

self hating is really eating me up..

inside out..

n a childhood's friend's quote popped up in my mind..

and she said..

u need to stop saying n being sorry all d time..

XOXO

Starry starry day?

2011-08-07T13:09:00.001+05:30

Hey.. I just realised...

my life's become so uneventful dat I can write nothing bout it in my blog..

compared to when I was back in Shah Alam..

nothing much happened..

its flat..

boring..

n damn exhausting..

no more midnight drive..

no more midnight mamak snacking..

no more stalkers' letter on my car.. (not for me laa off course.. for a friend who always sit beside me in my car when we went out)

no more driving in the traffic jam..

no more encounters with celebrities..

no more mocking d transgender.. (sorry.. I was young back then)

no more convoys..

no more discovering new places..

no more sweet weekend getaway..

no more driving for hours being lost..

no more driving straight faced in a pitch black road..

no more staying outside until early morning..

no more gigs..

no more concerts..

no more fest..

no more thrills..

Now..

When I'm not in d college or hospitals..

I'd be in my room..

cooped up in front of d computer..

most of d time watching videos..

sometimes reading novels..

sometimes sleeping..

rarely doing revision..

Sometimes went for shopping

(which I can finished within 3-4 hours.. where back in Shah Alam I can go and shopping for 12 hours straight.. coz there's nothing much here)

well... dats how routined I am now..

Damn..

I really need to start something new..

XOXO

UGLY

2011-08-04T22:04:00.000+05:30

I seriously lurves this song..

d words in dis song..

dunt u feel dat..

dats wut we all have felt at some times in our life..

well.. I sure do..

2NE1- UGLY

*random: got dis one from a comment on d vid... UGLY= u gotta love yourself.. :)

XOXO

Heureux?

2011-07-29T00:40:00.000+05:30

They say dat any relationships will become stronger as d years passed..

but..

why do I feel its kinda contradictory?

so near.. yet so far..

dat feels kinda true..

as d years passed by..

peoples seek faults..

and not forgiveness..

do we need to go back to school?

to make it all right?

XOXO

Je ne sais pas

2011-07-28T18:43:00.000+05:30

If only I could..

I wanna run away..

from all of this..

begin anew..

XOXO

Espionage

2011-07-28T18:36:00.000+05:30

If only there's a device in d world dat can read one's mind and heart..

XOXO

He-Who-Must-Not-be-Named

2011-07-24T21:28:00.001+05:30

Oooo.. OH!

I forgot to make an entry about d final Harry Potter movie..

I was soo eager on d day d movie was released..

I was nauseous bcoz I was sooo excited.. ;p

it was good..

even though not as detailed as d book..

it was nice..

I nearly teared up watching Severus' story..

I grew up with Harry Potter..

it was indeed d event of d decade..

How I wish I can go to the Wizarding World of Harry Potter themepark in Florida..

XOXO

Kidsss

2011-07-24T21:20:00.000+05:30

these lil' guys are freakin' adorable

XOXO

Spoiled Brat

2011-07-21T21:56:00.000+05:30

Yes.. I agree that I am kinda pampered by my parents..

but a spoiled brat?!

well... HELL to the NO..

and to those who still thinks I'm one...

Try putting on my shoes and then u'll know how 'spoil' I am..

Don't just simply judge others..

XOXO

I Really Hope That This Is Not It

2011-07-21T19:13:00.000+05:30

Peoples keep on using hadith to defend or accuse..

but..

I really hope..

dat my muslim brothers and sisters sit down.. and think..

is that what Islam teaches us?

to mock others..

to accuse others..

to hate each others..

to simply group others as the sinners?

Please let us not forget what Islam is really about..

and for the coming Ramadhan..

let us be merry and try to gained all dat we can from d holy month..

(I know dat I'm not qualified to talk about all the hukum and all... this is just my mere oppinion.. in dis world full of ambiguity..)

XOXO

Hate is a Strong Word

2011-07-10T15:02:00.000+05:30

congratulations.. u guys made my day..

d b m a m f

d e b t l f m f w u g u i t

i d c i p s

i d e c t b i a r w a u b

i c c l

d e b t a f m f m w u r i t c

b g w t m i f t g

a y d w a d m r

f i g o w u c t m h

a i w b c t y h

beat it!

so.. in conclusion

STFU!

XOXO

Vengeance

2011-07-10T12:47:00.000+05:30

I hold my grudge...

no matter how petty it is..

XOXO

Plain White Ceiling

2011-06-26T02:13:00.000+05:30

Somehow..

one cold night in Bangalore..

just pierce into a heart..

n d heart seems like its too tired to take it all..

n it might as well just stop beating..

n be as cold as d night..

XOXO

Cliche

2011-06-26T02:09:00.000+05:30

Sometimes..

at some point of ur life..

u kind of wonder..

why did peoples bully..

why did peoples punish..

why did peoples judge..

why did peoples mock..

why did peoples step on others..

why did peoples look don upon others..

At sum point of my life..

I keep wondering..

do I deserve d punishing..

do I deserve d mockery..

do I deserve to be played..

am I dat stupid to be looked down upon by others..

am I dat Idle in others eyes..

am I dat insignificant..

am I dat easy to be fooled..

my head screamed no..

my heart screamed maybe..

my soul screamed yes..

might as well just go..

take a stake..

and run it through my heart..

*sunday morning rambling*

XOXO

마음

2011-06-21T20:44:00.000+05:30

What my heart truly wishes for...

to be remembered..

to be appreciated..

to be missed when I'm no longer there..

not for money..

nor appearance..

just for myself..

sunsuhage nae ma-eum..

XOXO

Dearest Sunshine

2011-06-01T15:29:00.000+05:30

as a medic student..

I am really bad at dealing with death..

even tho we haven't been dat close recently..

even tho I know.. Islam forbid us to mourn over death..

even tho I know i have to be stronger..

I wanna use my childhood's reasoning today..

Somehow.. My tears can't stop falling..

Lily.. may Allah bless u..

We will always remember ur warmness..

al-Fatihah

XOXO

Vortex

2011-05-26T22:31:00.001+05:30

Sugoi ne gazetto!!!!

kakkoi!!!

coolness..

even tho.. d song didn't grow on me for d 1st time..

I'm sure it will grow on me.. :)

[PV] the GazettE - VORTEX (Full Version) [HDTV] by wonderful-life1989

Vortex - The GazettE

XOXO

Good Luck My Way

2011-05-26T22:16:00.000+05:30

finally..

after such a long long long time..

laruku's back..

my Hyde-sama is back!

Ken, Tetsu n yukihiro is back dude!!

Good Luck My Way - l'Arc~en~Ciel

XOXO

Healthier?

2011-05-26T22:13:00.001+05:30

Previously..

when d teachers or lecturers asked about how often did we workout in a week..

i would stumbled..

n felt really bad inside..

but now..

I can proudly say out loud..

dat..

I am working out for at least 30 minutes a day.. 5 days a week..

even though its not dat impressive nor strenuous..

at least..

now..

I'm not a full time couch potato..

yeay me! :)

XOXO

May--day?!

2011-05-22T22:21:00.001+05:30

Dinner?
Secret Garden?
Gardening?
Flower?
nice.. but didn't manage to take lotsa pics...
ooo.. oh..
I looked fat in all d pics!!! (whose to blame? I'm fat from d beginning)

Luncheon?
Mighty Apes?
well.. d preparation is underway..
hope everythings gonna turn out great..

oo.. oh... Ayin's convo.. Congrats!

routine?
well.. its 6 weeks already..
anything new?
naa... same old same old..

Wedding bells?
Yana's!!!
my matriculation roomies...
huwaaa...
kinda lost contact with her..
informed bout her by diana..
huwaaaaaaaaa!!! can't go.. :(
to be frank.. I'm not soo surprised..
well.. she's d kind of girl where boys just attracted to her..
she's like a magnet to d boys..
congrats Yana!!!
(pls do gimme sum tips on how to be a magnet like u.. ;p)

Cheated?
huwaaa.. due to my eagerness to buy d tickets for raya..
ended up buying a return ticket bangalore-kl via air asia for RM1k+(d usual price is only 'bout RM700+)
n last week..
MAS have a 'daebak' offer..
return..
bangalore-kl..
RM880..
huwaaaaaa!!!!!!!!
MAS summore!!!!
(dh laa x pnh blk Malaysia landing kt KLIA)

Money?
dont even let me start...
my accounts getting thinner n thinner by day.. :(
(urghh.. if only my tummy can be thinner n thinner by day)

Nieda... stop being such a MONEY SPENDER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! u r not an HEIRESS or CHAEBOL!!!!

huwoo.. tomorrow's gonna be my casualty posting..

haha.. felt like being in d TV series ER (except dat real life is much more boring then in d TV)

XOXO

Vlogging on Saturday evening #3

2011-05-14T16:05:00.001+05:30

ok.. enough fangirling with Kpop now!!

I just simply lurve dis song..

lurves Adelle..

well.. dis song might be old..

but d heck.. :)

urghh... if only i had her voice.. :)

Rolling in deep - Adele

XOXO

Vlogging on Saturday evening #2

2011-05-14T16:00:00.000+05:30

Park Bom Daebak!!

haha.. dis is Park Bom's second solo..

She's from 2ne1 in case u r wondering..

just simply lurves d song n d set..

Dont Cry- Park Bom

love it.. love it.. love it..!!

XOXO

Vlogging on Saturday evening #1

2011-05-14T15:52:00.000+05:30

2ne1 Daebak!!!

new single from 'em..

no autotunes..

no club mix..

just simply lurves it..

Lonely - 2NE1

soo in love with d song.. d hairdos.. n d outfits..

XOXO

L'ignorance

2011-05-08T21:57:00.003+05:30

They might think I'm ignorant..

They might think I know nothing..

They might think I know nothing except about entertainment..

I haven't been studying in any prestigious boarding school..

I haven't been in any school activities..

I am only fluent in 2 languages..

I haven't attended any of d ohh soo great Unis..

I dont know anything about music notes and instruments..

I dont know how to cook lots of things..

I forgot how to drive a stick..

I'm bad at coordinating my action & thought..

I tend to avoid problems when they arise..

I dont know how to talk about politics..

I dont know how to talk about philosophy..

I only read fiction novels..
I dont know much about photography..

I always dissapoint others..

I dont know how to stand up for myself..

I only listen quietly when peoples talk about sumthing dat i dont quite agree with..

mom.. dad.. sorry for being such an asshole

*sigh*

frankly..
kinda tired listening..
keep listening..
while they talk like u dunt have any slightest idea about things..

When a heart break.. it does not break even..
it shatters..

XOXO

OCD

2011-05-06T20:02:00.001+05:30

OCD..
Obsessive Compulsive Disorder..

It is an anxiety disorder in which people have unwanted and repeated thoughts, feelings, ideas, sensations
(obsessions), or behaviors that make them feel driven to do something..

While we're at it...
I was reminded by my mom's saying while watching a documentary about OCD on d TV..
'when we think back... we all kinda have sum OCD behaviour in us aren't we?'
n to be frank... I think my mom's kinda true..

as for me..
I think I'm a lil' bit of everything..
well not everything..
I'm a lil' claustrophobic.. (I dont like sitting on a window seat or d middle seat in plane.. I prefer isle seat)
I'm a lil' perfectionists at sum things.. (I really dont like it when people use an iron spatula while cooking on a non-stick pan)
I'm a lil taken aback when things are not done my way.. (I'm not used to 'tumis' when cooking 'masak lemak'.. n when i watched ppl 'tumis' it... I kinda felt dat its not gonna taste good..)
I smirked hearing about stuffs dat I find ridiculous (even though I know.. its not ridiculous to sum ppl)
n one thing dat I've trie so hard to held is..
I'm kinda ticked off when I heard sum words pronounced wrongly... n ended up telling off d correct way to pronounce d word..
I know its annoying..
but..
I've tried my best to held it in...
hence...
I am so so so sorry about it.....

mian... chingu!
.
XOXO

Trouty Mouth

2011-05-03T23:14:00.000+05:30

Me & my big mouth...

urghh..

how I wish i can stop talking crap..

how I wish I could stop mistakenly spilled everything out..

how I wish I could stop asking people annoying questions..

how I wish I could start talking wisely..

XOXO

Pests

2011-05-02T01:41:00.000+05:30

just like a pests..

crawling around..

looking for something..

something dat can feed d soul..

but..

instead of soul..

disgusts is d one who came..

crushed..

killed..

like d world's gonna get much better..

without it..

XOXO

ehh.. I'm at dat age group already?

2011-04-16T21:16:00.000+05:30

well.. back in Bangalore..
even though i had 3 weeks of holidays...
I still had d hangover feeling...
u know..
d feeling dat u got after u had a really great holiday..
where u r in denial dat its over.. :)

on d 2nd day back..
went to class as usual (i actually skipped d morning classes due to my 'hangover')
and went to withdraw money..
n a guy.. a punjab.. I think.. came n asked for a donation for certain foundation
and due to the nature of d local peoples here.. (dey r really persistent and like to force ppl)
i was kinda forced to donate 300 rupees..
hurmmm.. i think i need to work on my attitued.. i had to be firmer..
and he told me dat I have a very lucky forehead..
well.. I'm sure he'd said dat to everyone dat he forced to donate..
but... there's one more thing dat he said dat grabbed my attention n make me ponders..
he said - "but u r always thinking too much"
n I think dat it might be true..
am I?

oooh.. and about d title..
when my colleague around me has been bz arranging n talking bout marriage n engagement..
something popped in my head..
ehh.. I'm at d age of marriage already? well.. I guess.. they r.. I'm not?
(hahahaha... even tho... we're at d same age already)

owhh... 14th April is d 'Black Day'..
i just knew about it on last thursday..
it is actually a day celebrated by the single peoples in South Korea n they will eat jajangmyun (black sauce noodle) on dat day..
well... 14th feb is valentine.. created by d Romes.. where d girls will give chocs or presents to d guy dey like
14th march is white day.. created by d Japanese.. where d guy who gets presents on d valentine reply with roses or chocs to d girls dat dey like..
and... 14th march is d black day.. :)
see d connection? hahaha
I'm babbling again..

hurmm... 3rd year's life is exhausting..

XOXO

Tales of the Two Siblings

2011-04-06T22:09:00.000+05:30

A: do u have best friends when u r in junior high?
B: (in a rush sending B to school) hurmm.. i dunt really remember.. i may have few of 'em.. Why?
A: ummm.. nothing.. its just dat.. i dont have any best friends to hang out with.. 2 days is d maximum period for 'em to hangout with me..
B:well.. dont worry... maybe everyone is just busy.. with d tutors, training and all.. I'm sure ur friends would love to hangout with u..
A: r u popular in high school?
B: umm... not really.. but.. i had lots of fun in high school.. why?
A: nothing.. i just feels like everyone hates me..
B: common.. dats only ur feeling.. i'm sure dey'll like u once they know u better.. ok.. go n have fun at school!
A: ok.. bye! c u!

on d way back home... B kept thinking about all d question A's asked n realised dat A's having kinda rough time like B when B's around A's age..
n some of B's answer is lies...
She keeps on praying in her heart so dat A will have better chances in his life.. n does not end up like her..

XOXO

Alamak...!

2011-04-04T17:08:00.000+05:30

Alamak.. alamak.. alamak.. ala.. alamak...
(hahaha.. teringt msg tone ieda)

urghh.. my skin n hair are getting worse...
where to do facial n hair treatment eh??

XOXO

Ichi... nii.. san..

2011-04-03T08:08:00.002+05:30

urghh..
one week to go..
n I've to leave Malaysia for Bangalore..
I've to faced more n more n more n more stress.. :(

XOXO

Kepulauan Borneo

2011-04-01T14:43:00.002+05:30

In Malaysia..
enjoying my break..
had too much food..
went to miri.. n went for sushi in brunei..
thanx nana, effa, arif, faisal, wan, adha n nana's friend in brunei!
went to kota kinabalu..
snorkeling at d middle of d sea for d 1st time in my life..
seen nemo.. :)
its tiring but FUN..
seen a real submarine for d 1st time in my life..
thanx abg kama (ida's big bro) n kak dila!

took my 2nd phase exam results..
Alhamdulillah I passed all d subjects.. (even though... i bet.. i'm d only one without any distinction) [hehehe.. pdn muke.. sape srh x study!]

d only blunder ---> gained weight!

hehehehehe... no hal laa... its kinda waste to be dieting when u r back in malaysia for only 3 weeks aight? :)

XOXO

VIPs

2011-03-05T15:26:00.000+05:30

We are VIP!
Big Bang is BACK!!

Cafe - Big Bang

so freakin' in love with TOP..

but GD's cute too..

daesung's getting hotter.. :)

(dis song got stucked in my mind n I kept replaying it in my mind.. when I was thinking of wut to write on my exam's paper)

XOXO

24

2011-03-05T09:37:00.001+05:30

on a rest for 2 days.. before d next paper..
n might I say dat..
d papers are really killers dude..
If is in d game.. n all of us have dat life status on top of us.. i think..
each one paper I've taken would've reduced my life by 10%..
hahaha.. if dats true.. I'm gonna be dead by 15th march.. hahaha..
ohh.. maybe some 10-15% of it will be there.. bcoz of recharge bonuses like sleep, eating, shopping and fangirling.. ;p

while I'm waiting for my heater to be ready for my bath.. (hahahahahahaha... CORNY)
I've been reflecting a lil' bit..
as i ages gracefully through my life (hahahahahahahaha... double CORNY)

hahaha.. ok.. ok enough with d lame lines..
I've been getting a lot of engagement and marriage invitation from my friends..
I guess.. I'm at d age where peeps are starting to get serious about their life..
n while I'm here..
behaving soooooo far from being an adult..
(hahahahahahahaha... well.. even though its tough.. i gotta say.. I love my student life.. I just need to worry about my studies.. hahahaha.. or should i say.. I love d money, I love d way we can enjoy ourselves..)
all of my friends have started building their career, building a family..
I wish all of 'em d very best..
n no.. seriuosly.. I dont really care or jealous about getting married..
I am damn mad because I can't attend to most of their invitations.. T.T

so to the peoples out there.. around my age..
good luck! n all d best!
for my friends who may or may not remember me.. good luck! :)

XOXO

Delusion

2011-02-21T09:29:00.000+05:30

I'm having a seriously weird but kinda happy dream last nite..
geez.. no.. its not a wet dream! haha
does d dream indicates my deepest desire?
d heck.. travel d world! (^-^)v

XOXO

Imipramine..

2011-02-20T19:01:00.000+05:30

Its been ages since I wrote my last entry..
and.. as u can see
through a series of suggestive gloomy entries..
Some of u might've guessed..
dis girl is depressed..
yup..
I'm officially declaring myself as a distressed person....

hahaha.. what the heckk..
as if I'm d only distressed person in d world..

well.. I've been through my 3rd IA...
and as i have guessed..
I barely pass 3 of d papers..
n unfortunately failed pathology..
n now.. I'm only a week away from my fnal professional 2nd year mbbs examination..
n I've been wasting 1 week..
doing everything.. except studying..

Have i told u guys dat I am really bad at managing my stress & dissapointment?
well..
I guess I'm d only one who know how bad I handle things..

ok.. enough bout my so called problem..
hahaha.. last thursday nite..
we went for a movie..
No Strings Attached.. starring ashton kutcher n natalie portman..
n...
oOOoheEmmMGeeee!!!
dey seriously didn't cut any adult rated scene in d movies here.. (as I forgot again.. dat dis is not malaysia)
hahaha..
I think..
if d light was on..
ppl would see how d 4 of us girls.. sitting there blushing..
trying to control our 'machoness' watching d so called 18sx scene
(actually.. in my defense.. they're not actually naked.. but u know.. all d sexually suggestive sound n moves n expression.. hahaha)
ok..
I'm not gonna take d blame alone..
so...
I'll tell u guys with whom I watched d movie..
~BudDy~
~SyaFizA~
~TqAh HamdaN~

but in d movies.. there r a group of medical students..
n I quote one of d characters dialogue..
"Don't be ashamed.. We dont care if u r naked.. we've seen plenty.. in fact hundreds of p***s"
"In fact.. I've seen thousands.."

hahaha.. well.. we r a group of medical students

XOXO

The World That They Live In

2011-01-22T23:13:00.002+05:30

"I need another story
Something to get off my chest
My life gets kinda boring
Need something that I can confess"

wish me d best of luck for my 2nd year MBBS final exam!! :)

Sonnet I

That thereby beauty's rose might never die,
But as the riper should by time decease,
His tender heir might bear his memory:
But thou contracted to thine own bright eyes,
Feed'st thy light's flame with self-substantial fuel,
Making a famine where abundance lies,
Thy self thy foe, to thy sweet self too cruel:
Thou that art now the world's fresh ornament,
And only herald to the gaudy spring,
Within thine own bud buriest thy content,
And, tender churl, mak'st waste in niggarding:
Pity the world, or else this glutton be,
To eat the world's due, by the grave and thee.

XOXO

Lets Fly

2011-01-17T00:55:00.000+05:30

my favorite songs at the moment

Rocketeer - Far East Movement

Love Seat - Wheesung & Humming Urban Stereo

Oh Yeah - GD & TOP feat. Park Bom

p/s: oh yeah.. I'm stressed!!! epic SG!

XOXO

Conscience

2011-01-14T00:41:00.000+05:30

Growing up as d 1st child..
I've always been put up with sum kinda responsibilities..
n soo..
I ended up being who I am today..
a person with lots of conscience..
well..
in short..
there's one term dat d youngsters in Malaysia use nowadays..
SKEMA

In school..
I never play truant..
even though I didn't concentrate in class..
even though I'm d only one attending..
I will still go to d class..
why..?
just simply because..
GUILT

When my family and I went for shopping...
while my sisters and brothers was asking for branded apparels n expensive toys..
I will always be the one who keep on calculating n putting things back on their rack when I realised its kinda expensive..
I will always be the one who are concerned about money..
I guess..
u can just call me..
so freakin' tight up..

I will always worry about d other party when I cannot meet their expectation..
I will always felt there's a very good reason behind everything.. even though my mind told me.. there isn't
I will always felt sorry for d person who've been unfortunately scold by me..
When sumthing happens.. I will always be the one who gives in..
When peoples asks sumthing from me.. n I know they're just taking advantage on me.. I just go with it..
In the end.. I will always be the one who will be forgotten..

...how I wish I can just forget about it...

XOXO

Retrospective

2011-01-07T22:22:00.001+05:30

as I looked back..
23 years of my life..

Shit...

is all I can say..

XOXO

Insomnia

2011-01-06T23:50:00.000+05:30

dont u think dat dis song is kinda cute?!

Insomnia

[by Humming Urban Stereo]

taking a nap all day long
there's nobody disturbs me
but i just can't feel free

there's no hope there's no despair
only the anger remained into my heart

there's no chance and there's no clue
you've gone so faraway
i'm hiding myself from you

i hate myself who can't stop loving you
i feel so stupid
beacuse i'm still in love with you

fall over precipice but there's
no one can rescue me
my heart has broken two pieces
i can't love you anymore

it's hard for me to go on my life without you
i'm suffering from insomnia
i'm dying day and day

XOXO

nu ABO

2011-01-05T21:07:00.000+05:30

owhoo.. its 2011 y'all!! ;p
a friend of mine..
scold me..
"Nieda... go n update ur blog!!!"
hehehe... thanx mate!
I tot i dunt have any visitors anymore..

so.. I know it's a lil' late..
but.. d heck..
HAPPY NEW YEAR.. 2011!!

as usual.. everyone reflect on their previous year when d year comes to an end..
as for me..
I dunt think I made any improvement or changes in my life..
except for taking an aerobic class..
d same old lazy immature unattractive me..

but as all d people in d world..
I do hope dat dis new year would bring me a better life..
I'm gonna have a major exam in less than 1 month..
n i haven't started studying anything..

last monday..
I went to an optical store to make a new spectacles..
n d optician asked me..
"ur age madam?"
i stuttered n after a minute... said... "I'm 24"
hahaha.. I meant to answer 23..
but just then I realised..
hey.. its 2011 already.. n ur gonna be 24..
n I was like.. wth.. i just turned 23 a couple months back..
but I guess.. I should've started to act n think like an adult..
I aged gracefully.. <--- dunt u think dat dis is d lamest reason dat a celebrity can give when they're accused of taking botox or going under d knife to looked younger

hehehe.. n soo..
where should I go dis coming holiday eh??
frankly speaking... I'm kinda jealous watching peoples went to korea, japan,europe, down under, NZ, vacationing.. playing snow..
but i just dunt have dat kind of money nor peoples who wants to go with me..
well.. i guess..
i can just hope dat I would have win any holiday packages..
well..
its a bonus if I can go with any of my favorite celebrities aight??
(hahahaha... dats d most childish dream for someone like me to have)

last night..
we kinda host a BBQ party at our house..
not many peeps turn out..
but its ok.. they're bz studying i guess..we do kinda tell everyone about it a lil late..
n soo.. d BBQ party..
turned into sum kinda of a campfire gathering.. (without d campfire of course..)
we talked n talked n talked until dawn..
haha.. i kinda fall asleep at 5 am..
hahahahahahahahaha..
n d most embarassing thing is..
I SNORES.. kinda loud..
hahahahaha...
gomenne guys..
my blocked nasal cavity might have caused d snoring..

ok.. I better start gathering my will to start study ..
peace out! (^-^)v

p/s: I'm sooo hooked into a korean drama.. tittled Secret garden!! I LURVESSS TOP from BIGBANG!!!!!

XOXO

Filthy Rich

2010-12-08T23:18:00.000+05:30

Peoples around me..
who stick with me long enough..
would have known my ideal type of man..
1st: he must be rich

one fine day..
a friend of mine talked to me about it..
she said that
It is better for us girls to have our own money by ourselves..
she told me to stop dreaming marrying a filthy rich man..
n start dreaming about making my own money..
deep in my heart..
I know.. she's true.. but I can't just forget about it.. hehe.. silly nieda..

Sometimes..
when I am seriously emotionally unstable..
I would just sat...
n looked back at my life..
n from that..
I know why I dreamt of having a filthy rich husband..

I'm just an effing emotionally unstable 23 years old girl

XOXO

Little Miss Nothing

2010-12-08T23:08:00.001+05:30

Its kinda heartbreaking..

when u realized that..

peoples only know n remember u for what u have..

n not what u are..

XOXO

I've pricked my heart

2010-12-08T19:09:00.001+05:30

Luna Sea is undoubtedly one of the greatest JRock band ever.. period!

my favorite song... Rosier..

Sugizo is just amazing!

This performance is EPIC!

Luna Sea - Rosier

XOXO

Pledge

2010-12-08T19:03:00.001+05:30

As usual...

switched on my laptop..

n fools around..

but today..

OMG!

no!

I forgot to check out The Gazette's new single..

n it has been out since 26th Nov..

Which means..

I checked out their new song 2 weeks late..

gomen-ne Ruki-sama..

btw.. I think their new single Pledge is a

lil bit soft for 'em..

but..

I simply lurvesss it..

uruha's n aoi's guitar solo is awesome!

the GazettE - PLEDGE (PV)
Uploaded by pandapeinture. - Watch more music videos, in HD!

The GazettE - Pledge

XOXO

Do you know that human brain weighs 8 pounds?

2010-11-29T22:26:00.000+05:30

I'm an effing immature childish 23 years old

XOXO

Sisterhood of the travelling pants

2010-11-28T23:34:00.000+05:30

I dunno why..

I think I am really similar to Carmen Lowell in dis movie..

owhh..

lurve d movie..

how I wish I could have a beautiful friendship like dat..

XOXO

Je suis tres bien

2010-11-26T22:12:00.000+05:30

as I'm avoiding from doing my revision..

I try to recalled back wut I have learned in my french class when I was in form 1 & form 2..

Regretfully.. there's not much dat I can remember..

apart from:

le poulet - chicken

le sucre - sugar

gateau au chocolat - chocolate cake

je ne sais pas - I dont know

Bonjour - hello

and i can only remember d alphabet until G..

uh huh.. I can remember a complete sentence now..

bonjour l'ami je suis ravi de tous recontrer- hello friend, i am delighted to meet u today

(sorry if I messed up d spelling)

(can u believe dat I actually wrote a poem.. completely in french back then when I was in form 2??)

I'm hoping dat..

someday..

I will be able to speak out and really mean dat..

"Je suis tres bien"

XOXO

Choices

2010-11-26T18:58:00.002+05:30

Choice - consists of the mental process of judging the merits of multiple options and selecting one of them. While a choice can be made between imagined options ("what would I do if ...?"), often a choice is made between real options, and followed by the corresponding action. Most people regard having choices as a good thing, though a severely limited or artificially restricted choice can lead to discomfort with choosing and possibly, an unsatisfactory outcome. In contrast, unlimited choice may lead to confusion, regret of the alternatives not taken, and indifference in an unstructured existence; and the illusion that choosing an object or a course leads necessarily to control of that object or course can cause psychological problems -Wikipedia

In every living person in this world..
There will be a need to choose between choices..
When we were newly born.. we have to choose between crying or sleeping..
When we were a lil' bigger.. we have to choose between a lollipop or vegetables..
When we were in school.. we have to choose between doing homework or play..
When we were in high school.. we have to choose between college or work..
and I will say that there's a whole lot more choices dat we have done in our life..
be it good choices.. or bad choices..
Consequently.. we have to live with our choices.. happily.. or regretfully..
Some people say that by making mistakes in our life.. like making a bad decision.. will help us grow to be a more mature and experienced individual..
Some people could not live with the mistakes dat they've made.. and lives in depression.. or worse.. they commit suicide..
As a muslim.. I do believe that our life.. is not ours to take.. and faith is the greatest weapon a person can have..
But i cannot deny dat I myself have ever thought of suicide...
well.. we all have our moment..
u know..
teenage.. rebellious.. enraging hormone..
For some people.. like me.. we are really bad at making choices.. and always ended up following other's choices..
I do hope dat someday.. I am brave enough to boldly choose and live with d consequence no matter how will it turn out..
Sometimes.. I think my younger siblings is braver than me in making their own choices..
I am indeed envious of the peoples who are bold enough to make a difficult decision.. as I myself.. who have been living in this world for 23 years and 12 days are unable to do so..

XOXO

Running & Running

2010-11-26T18:34:00.000+05:30

urghh..

bad cough..

lil' asthmatic episodes..

running nose..

raised temperature...

owhh..

wut to do..

d weather is changing again..

XOXO

congested

2010-11-25T23:13:00.002+05:30

haishhh...

had a very bad congested nose today..

to d point where I gasp for breath if I close my mouth..

hahaha..

I can't even brush my teeth properly..

coz I felt so breathless when I close my mouth

XOXO

Show Me the Money!!!

2010-11-24T00:22:00.000+05:30

My heart swoons watching Tom Cruise as Jerry Maguire..

ohh..

How I wish in 5-10 years from now..

my Jerry Maguire will come home n tell me..

"You complete me"

dat would definitely swept me off my feet.. ;p

(hahaha... pardon me for being hopelessly romantic.. well.. wut can I do.. I adore Tom Cruise.. )

XOXO

Rainbows

2010-11-23T09:50:00.000+05:30

Ok.. let us reminisce..

some old school clips from laruku ;)

wutever it is..

40/41..

hyde-sama is still effing hot as ever..

Ready Steady Go - l'Arc~en~Ciel

Stay Away - l'Arc~en~Ciel

Driver's High - l'Arc~en~Ciel

In one words dat I can describe laruku..

KAKKOI!!!!

XOXO

Change

2010-11-20T15:10:00.002+05:30

For better or for worse..

Peoples do change

XOXO

Why? Why? Why?

2010-11-19T15:29:00.000+05:30

as the years are counting..

we are close..

physically..

but it felt like..

we are getting..

further n further apart...

XOXO

Friday Night

2010-11-12T23:37:00.002+05:30

오늘 밤 나만이 아파요

XOXO

Shooting Star

2010-11-12T23:28:00.000+05:30

How I wish I can be true to myself.. for once and for all..

XOXO

IMS' Sports day

2010-11-08T21:05:00.000+05:30

Instead of this...

we got this..

XOXO

HalloweeN

2010-11-01T21:21:00.000+05:30

I just lurves dis new vid by 2NE1 so so so so so so so much..

It hurts - by 2NE1

XOXO

Slumber Party... ;p

2010-11-01T09:06:00.000+05:30

Frankly speaking...
I know.. it is a bit immature for us girls having a slumber party at our age..
but d heck... its just for fun... :)
BBQ...
ate a lot..
laughed a lot..
danced sillyly.. (is dat even a word)
play hard..
screamed like hell..
gossipping..
chatting..
slept in any spot dat we can find..
slept at about 3-4 am..
woke up after just 3-4 hours sleep..
walked back home in a hangover-like manner... (no.. we didn't have alcohol.. we only have sirap bandung and coke.. hehehe)
all in all..
It was FUN..!!
thanx for making it happens gurls..! (^-^)v
~ieda~tqah~farra~dee~aida~jama~dayein~dila~Sem~efi~wawa~tqah hamdan~syazwan~annis~buddy~sya~ayin~

ooo.. oh! I forgot.. I played guitar hero for d 1st time yesterday!! (hahaha.. i know.. dats kinda lame) thanx Shakkir!
and i laughed at myself like crazy..
now I am definitely sure.. I sucked at game.. but I just simply lurves it.. (hahahahaha,,,, hbs laaa.. hari2 serang umah Uze pasnih)

XOXO

Heartbroken?!

2010-10-29T19:50:00.000+05:30

Sometimes..

When I think back..

I think my heart has been broken without me.. the owner.. realizing it..

but well..

I'm d kind dat can't stop to see d best in peoples..

even tho they've done sumthing wrong..

XOXO

What If We Can Relive the Best Moment Again?!

2010-10-29T19:30:00.001+05:30

Ok.. this is a 2008 ad by Orange TV..

frankly speaking..

i dunno wth is orange TV..

a TV package I think..

but dis ad is sooo sweet n creatives!

~njoy!

XOXO

MirroR

2010-10-29T01:44:00.000+05:30

Mirror mirror on the wall..

who's d most obnoxious of 'em all?

Mirror mirror on the wall..

is it my own fault that I ended up like wut I am today?

Mirror mirror on the wall..

am I destined to just be like I am now?

Mirror mirror on the wall..

am I really existed just to be tossed aside when I'm no longer useful?

Mirror mirror on the wall..

am I really destined to be just another loser?

Mirror mirror on the wall..

Have I chose the wrong path?

XOXO

Paperplane Pursuit

2010-10-27T22:18:00.001+05:30

at my 1st time of hearing dis songs..

I thought dis guys are foreigners..

so I looked 'em up in Rick Dees, Billboard.. etc..

but I found nothing..

n then.. i looked 'em up in Fly fm..

n found out they are local band..

n soo..

here is it..

Goodbye by Paperplane Pursuit

~~njoy!! (^-^)v

XOXO

Monkey Business

2010-10-27T22:12:00.000+05:30

Urghh..
My peaceful night has been invaded by a bunch of 'samseng' monkeys..
Damn monkeys..
they reside on my room's balcony..
they are doing sum serious shitty business there.. (seriously.. they were shitting there...A LOT)
Thanx to them..
I am now seriously sensitive to any clattering sounds..
Hmmmmm...
I dunno wuts up with me n animals...
I seriously dont like animals..
but dont get me wrong..
I don't enjoy looking at those peoples who abused animals for their own fun or advantages..
ok.. back to my story..
back when I was in my secondary school.. form 4.. in b4.. RPS..
on one 'lucky' night.. a cat gave birth in a locker just beside my bed.. which I put my school's shirt in..
n 'lucky' me.. I got to heard d howling pain of d kitten's mom all night.. and I only got to sleep for like an hour.. n 'lucky' me.. d cat's blood was smeared all over my school's shirt..
n d worse thing is.. she even tried to move her kittens onto my bed...
URGHHHHHH
n now.. a bunch of monkeys are residing on my room's balcony..
why oh why...
if only d animals are a bunch of handsome hunky guys..
I wouldn't mind if they want to bother me...
ok.. I sound like a desperate animal-hater

XOXO

Unsettled Darkness

2010-10-15T18:48:00.000+05:30

Sometimes..
I just wonder..
What impression did I left on all d people I've met through out my life..
n these things kinda popped in my head...
over and over again..

primary school -> "ohh... she's Mr Burn's 1st daughter"
secondary school -> "ohh.. she's d big nerdy girl"
college prep -> "ohh.. she's d PDA girl"
university -> "ohh.. she's d girl who's driving d white MYVi"

am I really dat good for nothing girl who was only known for her things and appearance..
thinking about dat..
I think I really need to work my ass off to make my family proud of me..
maybe I could make a real big discoveries or new inventions in my life later on..

ohh.. I think I'm an arrogant snob.. thats why I ended up like who I am today.. padan muke

XOXO